Assalamu alaikum wa rahmatullah
There's two things I think you guys could help me on:
1) There is just so much against Islam I was always told that islam was perfect and now if feel in doubt. These Christian apologist I know you call them liars but sometimes I think what if there right? They have so many points against Islam.
2) I'm in doubt so I beg and cry and ask Allah for a sign for months but nothing not the smallest thing this pushes me towards the idea of atheism.
1) There is no "if", someone is either right or wrong. Islam is PERFECT. The problem I see with many brothers and sisters is that when Islam is challenged, they instantly doubt. They have made *INVALID points against Islam. Hence? I don't see any problem. A lot of people are willfully ignorant thus they make easily refuted points. You could have a simpler reasoning. Try to understand the following concept. If something is proven True, everything that contradicts it, is False. There are clear Evidences from the Linguistic, Prophecies, Scientific and Numerical Miracles, that Islam is the Truth. It is so certain that the Noble Qur'an even offers a falsification test:
http://www.hamzatzortzis.com/essays-articles/exploring-the-quran/the-inimitable-quran/2) Don't ask Allah (swt) for Signs, His Signs are everywhere.
16:11He causes to grow for you thereby herbage, and the olives, and the date-palms, and the grapes, and all the fruits. Surely there is a sign in this for a people who reflect.
2) Just the thought of the Kalam Cosmological Argument, Teleological Argument, Ontological Argument and the Moral Argument for the existence of God, avoids me to even assert anything further concerning Atheism at all.
Allah (swt) says:
29:2 Do men think that they will be left alone on saying, We believe, and will not be tried?
29:3 And indeed We tried those before them, so Allah will certainly know those who are true and He will know the liars.
Praise be to Allah! May Allah send His Blessings upon Muhammad and the family of Muhammad! And may Allah (swt) help you escalate your doubts!