As'salamu Alaikum dear brother Koray,
My condolences to the loss of your Grandmother. May Allah Almighty grant her the Everlasting Paradise. Ameen. We are all guests in this life dear brother. Life is only a hub that we pass through, akhi. Everything on earth will expire, and expire soon. None of us will remain alive forever, akhi. Stay strong, dear brother. And believe me, it is not good for the old people to remain alive when they're too unable to care for themselves. Life becomes a prison for them. I personally wish to die sooner than being unable to walk and take care of the basics of life. The real life is the Life After, dear brother. Believe it. It is absolutely True! This life that we live in is nothing but a little mini preview of what awaits humanity from Bliss and Torture. May we all be pardoned from the torture of Hell, Insha'Allah. Ameen. And may we all die as true believing Muslims, insha'Allah. This is the Grand Prize to win indeed, insha'Allah.
Death is one of the dark mysteries that man forever has pondered upon and greatly feared. It is Allah Almighty's humbling of all of His creations, no matter how high, mighty and powerful they may be. Iblis, who became Satan, thought that he was too high and mighty to obey Allah Almighty. Yet even this arrogant being will be humbled when he passes through death, and unto the Hell Fire after that. Allah Almighty Said in the Holy Quran:
[003:185] Every soul shall have a taste of death: And only on the Day of Judgment shall you be paid your full recompense. Only he who is saved far from the Fire and admitted to the Garden will have attained the object (of Life): For the life of this world is but goods and chattels of deception.
[021:035] Every soul shall have a taste of death: and We test you by evil and by good by way of trial. to Us must ye return.
[029:057] Every soul shall have a taste of death in the end to Us shall ye be brought back.
Stay strong, dear brother. We're all heading towards our earthly deaths. Everyday that passes gets us 1 day closer to our expiration dates here on earth, and unto the beginning of the Ultimate Permanent and Everlasting Life in Heaven, Insha'Allah. Ameen.
Take care akhi,
Osama Abdallah