im going to be a hypcokrite i guess :(

[Koray]

Hi brothers and sisters

its been awhile since i last visit this wensite, i was studying hard for a long time to get my grades higher.
Anyways, in Turkey, there is an on going(going for 90 years i think) debate about which side should rule the country and the current goverment is using islam as a cover to exploit the citizens faith to secure its rule.

Naturally the opposing side is fighting back to take the goverment back but in doing so they are attacking islam.
Last year was my first semester in university and in our rhetorics lessons me and another of my friend had a little argument about our prophet Hz.Muhammed. i had to remain silent after awhile because of my fear that if a may say something wrong about our prophet.

Finally, last day, my History teacher attacked openly to islam saying that the muslim countries is weak and not as advanced as the west is because of islam.There were a lot of attacks to islam lately but last day put me in a doubt about Allah's existance and im still not able to get my head together despite overwhelming proof about Allah's existance. i fear that im becoming(or become) a hypcorite, that my mouth says Allah exist but my hearth says he doesnt existh. There is a saying of famous thinkerer mevlana that he who has strong faith in Allah undergoes the hardest test. Help me brothers about how should i pass this test.

[Black Muslim]

Although there are many good people here who can help , I advice you to come here
http://www.eltwhed.com/vb/forumdisplay.php?72-Articles-in-other-languages
The members of this forum are available most of the time . They are many as well which could help you . Believe me , I have gone through similar doubts the same as you , but after thinking for a while I found out that it was me who couldn't understand . I ask God to help you .

[Sama]

Assalam alaikum brother, may Allah help you to defeat shaitan,

Our weakness is because we abandoned islam not because we are holding to islam !
This articles will be helpful:
http://www.islamweb.net/emainpage/index.php?page=articles&id=92755
http://www.allaahuakbar.net/article_read.asp?id=482
http://sunnahonline.com/library/contemporary-issues/317-state-of-the-ummah-the-in-the-light-of-the-prophecies-of-the-prophet

Try to communicate with local masjd community inshaaAllah

[Tanveer]

I think most of us have gone through this phase in one way or the other Bro Koray and really Im surprised. I guess your history teacher doesnt know about colonialism, drone attacks and western backed dictators.

[Koray]

Hi Black Muslim,

Thanks for answering my call for help and your good wishes for Allah's assist for me in my quest of passing my test. Unfortunately my tablet computer wasnt able to show the text in your link because it is written in Arabic i think and my computer lack the fonts for it. i thank you for your good intention and trying to help me, thanks a lot.

Hi Sama,

Thans for answering my call for help and your good advices. i read all of the given links, they were very helpful for boosting my morale and getting my head together. i clearly see now that it is not enough to just say with my mouth that Allah existh. Rather, to fully realize Allah's existance i must spare more time for religious study and must begin performing daily salaats. Thanks for your help.

Hi Tanveer

You made a good point,  there is an illuminati card that reads ''Blinded by science'' i think that summarizes everything. Although there is an overwhelming scientific proof about Allah's existance, i think Allah is making the atheisths ignorant of the truth to test our faith in him.

Thanks all of you. insallah Allah will reward you in this world and in the heaven for helping a muslim see the truth again. i hope there is no doubth in my heart about Allah's existance and that im no longer a hypocrite or an infidel.